2009 may have begun as the terrible-horrible-no-good-very-bad-year, but it looks like it may end on a positive note. (Watch, my luck is gonna turn just because I said that. Oh brother. No more of your tricks, Universe!)
Today marks the second successful eye appointment of the year! These days, I define successful as walking out without any vascular activity and most importantly, injection-free. I did not make gains on the eye chart, but at least things did not worsen. I'm "holding steady" as Dr. B calls it.
Before checking out the situation, Dr. B asked me if I thought things had improved. I told him honestly that I did not know. Secretly, I feared that my eyes had worsened. I've been eating a lot of junk lately and not really taking care of myself. The heartache of the World Series meant that I treated myself to pizza and ale while staying up way past my bedtime. A few weeks ago, I fought a nasty cold and graded an insane amount of student work. Then Halloween happened, and I'm left staring at a cauldron of candy that smells good even through plastic wrappers. I don't think the guilt really hit until last night, which was spent worrying over everything I had done the past three months. This resulted in feeling bad about not sleeping and what that would do to my eye blah blah blah. Basically, I worried about my worry. Unproductive but it happens.
But ta-da! Great eye appointment, and I'm not due to see the doc until February.
So, I'm left with a couple questions:
* Is my diet truly working?
* Maybe my diet works...but not necessarily the whole of it? Do I really need to eliminate meat and flour? Or are my pharmacy-grade fish oil capsules doing a great job? Funny, I'm also asking these questions as I munch happily on my celebration snack of bread, cheese, and prosciutto. Oh, I missed you prosciutto! How great would it be if I could eat bread and meat as much as I wanted?!?
* Maybe the decreased stress levels are at work.
* Or, as Dr. B insists, Avastin and Lucentis are the true miracle workers here.
